Unable to move a muscle because they didn’t have strength. Tethered to cords and catheters, beeps and buzzers, a plethora of monitoring devices to track my every breath, heartbeat, and bodily system. This was helplessness I’d never experienced before. I was utterly subdued. Psalm 116:6…
I remember vividly the first time I was “yelled” at on the job. I’d made a mistake. But, instead of owning it and admitting it to my manager, I thought I’d try to fix it myself. Hiding something that reflected poorly on me was my…
I’d try and try, but my no’s to myself didn’t last. As I’d steel my resolve to fix myself, my willpower “rules” were a stop sign that would last for a couple of weeks, but honestly, it worked more like a caution sign I’d blow…
I’ve heard people say they don’t regret a single moment in their life. While I certainly understand that all our experiences and memories make us who we are, I know I have regrets. I have grieved and mourned over some of my decisions. I bet…
I’ve had low energy/fatigue and bouts of depression from early adulthood, but I just shrugged them off as manageable. Manageable because I had found ways to protect myself from childhood with lots of sleep and comfort myself with carbs and sweets. But after I kicked…
